yunns

Thats right! This is how far I can tolerate...

2011-11-07T00:42:00.000-08:00

能够走到这里, 我已经满足了.

All I could advise him is..
"If you want the life you are having now, do not get yourself a girlfriend."
Time and time I've been repeating what I disliked.
I was hoping all along for a surprise but to my disappointment.
We both just have so many disagreements to everything.

Neglected, unloved, unpampered.
He just treats me accordingly to his mood.
Do I really deserve this?

I'm feeling so tired.. 真的累了!

2010-02-27T23:18:00.000-08:00

Firstly, apologies to Grandma.

Sorry for not being there on 270210. This is the second time on your big day, I couldn't make it. You can see what happened, I didn't made this decision myself. You knew how much I wanna go, you knew how much I hope to feel your presence, you knew how much I misses you. I was dead drunk, even felt my "imaginary friends" talking to me, and I broke down crying myself to sleep. I felt so terrible, I wished you were really here... I really wish you could come back alive right now... I chose to turn away whenever there's big events. I'm sorry. I can't face it, I tried to be strong. But most of the times, I still can't take it...

2010-01-31T01:12:00.000-08:00

Happy 86th Birthday 阿公!!! (=

Went to Varsity Park (Eldest Uncle place) at Pasir Panjang.

Held the celebration at Function Room till 4pm.

Didn't really enjoyed myself,

Cos I dread family outings with Fathers' side.

It would be good if I were to see them once a year,

Which it had always been like this for the past few years,

How nice is that! ^_^

Its Monday tomorrow, LAST WEEK OF SCHOOL!

2010-01-30T16:51:00.000-08:00

Since 22nd Jan till now...

Days just filled with SCHOOL & REVISION.

Can you imagine, I didn't even go out at all! =p

Had a wonderful time with my class, especially my girls.

Loves all.

29/01/10 ; Happy Birthday Shaowei! (:

Finally, time to relax!

Headed to Malaysia for Seafood with PeiJun,

& Came back S'pore around 10 plus.

Thank you for looking after me within that few hours.

Life haven't been so peaceful for me like so long.
I swear the past 1 week past so quickly.
Nothings cropping up except for the guys,
Whose trying to step in my life with their best.
They're stressing me, & I'm gonna give up the rest with it.
I'm sorry, cos this is me, ACCEPT IT.

2010-01-22T19:53:00.000-08:00

20/01/10
Ended school at 6.30pm.
Home-d, did some work and took dinner.
Went to Atlantis to look for Gary, JonNg & Ivan around 10 plus.
After Gary make love (=p), we headed for supper!
All thanks to Ivan or else I'll get to reached home at 3 instead of 4 plus ~
PONTIANA &*$$#^%#&

21/01/10
Had only 2 hours of sleep & school!
Fucking tired during lesson.
Home-d after school, dinner & dreamland!
Slept till 12 plus, AhBoon called to meet up.
Went down to Ave 1, had E33 for the night.
I really cannot make it, & puke after 1 bottle!
My body ain't taking anymore alcohol =(
Slept till the next evening, Fish & Chip for dinner!

22/01/10
After so many years.... Finally...
Met up with Eddy & 1 of his friend,Yusri, at my blockdownstairs around 10 plus.
Went to fetch KPO aftermath.
Headed to Gombak to drink, & then to Labrador Park for the night.
Its good to chill, no more alcohol! (=

I should've seen it coming, I should've read the signs.
Anyway, I guess it's over.
Can't believe that I'm the fool again....

2010-01-19T20:05:00.000-08:00

Went to TTSH Starbuck to get some drinks treated by Alvin. I really dread stepping in to TTSH. I remembered the days when Grandma was hospitalised and I went there just to visit her, even in the middle of the night. I haven't forget at all... Walked over to the center, now I'm done with my injection & will need to return there on the 22nd January. Before injection, the nurse said: "It will be a little pain". Brave me was looking at how she inject in the whole process (=

Am in class now, no mood to present any single shit.. & There'll be a Maths workshop tomorrow from 4 to 6.30p.m. And after that, I'll be meeting up with Darren for dinner & movie. Sorry that I've been dragging to meet you all along. Cos I'm just afraid.... I don't want everything to repeat again.

2010-01-18T02:54:00.000-08:00

Applied for LOA on 19/01/10. Meaning, there's no school for me tomorrow! How cool is that? Double yayness! ^_^ Will be heading to TUBERCULOSIS CONTROL UNIT with 4 of my classmate. They're be checking their result, postive/negative, while I'll be the only one going for injection! Tell me it doesn't hurts, does it? LOL ~ My class got 3 Positive, 2 INACTIVE & 1 ACTIVE, & they're be on medication for 6 months.
Bless me, I won't be so suay right? GET WELL SOON MY DEAR FRIENDS! (:

2010-01-17T04:15:00.000-08:00

Weekends = Partying time!

Sun city with XYH & co on Friday night.
Don't really like it, dancers ain't that powerful neither.
XYH friend fetched us to S11 for supper,
& We slept from morning 7 plus to night 7 plus.
How wonderful is that? I LIKE! =D

ZOUK on Saturday night!
Saw a few familiar faces from Jurong.
Cabbed, met Darren & his ARMY friends around 11 plus.
I only enjoyed when the party is about to end!

我又能怎样?

不敢问,不敢想,只能隐藏....

2010-01-11T22:46:00.000-08:00

我已经很努力的忘记一切,不在去想了.

Whatever! Finally I understood.
I use my heart to feel & know who are the ones.
No point, just see no point ~
Lets go different path. Your way, my way.
The end.

2010-01-11T02:55:00.000-08:00

Received a letter from TanTockSengHospital,
Saying I was recently in close contact with a person who had infectious tuberculosis (TB).

TB is spread when a person with infectious active TB in the lungs (or throat) coughs and expels the TB germs into the air. A person with whom he or she is in prolonged close contact may then breathe in the air containing the TB germs and become infected with the TB germ.

A person who has infected with the TB germ has latent TB infection. The only way to identify a person wtih latent TB infection is through the tuberculin skin test (injection), which will show a "bump" at the side of the skin test after 48 to 72 hours. Please be assured that a person with latent TB infection is otherwise healthy, does not have active TB disease and is not infections to others.

Thanks to one of my classmate!

2010-01-09T21:46:00.000-08:00

Yes, its SATURDAY!

I've been waiting for this day since we planned.

DRINK, DRANK, HIGH!=D

想说声爱你已很久,可我从来都没有.
只怪自己当初没有抓紧你的手.
失去了你我才知道你有多重要.
现在说后悔也没有用.
心虽然很痛,只怪自己当初没有将爱说出口.
现在想说声爱你已找不到借口..

I'm sorry, I should not have shed any single tears.

But I can't! I miss you so badly,

& Always wish you're still here by my side.

Pictures of you, pictures of me.

2010-01-08T10:47:00.000-08:00

我想我该学习如何忘记你的脸

Rebel ; 30/12/09

我改变作息时间,也换了喝咖啡的地点.
电话我不会再接,也不会回覆你的留言.
我知道我太狠心,也不敢奢望你会谅解
从今后别再见面,就断了所有牵连.
Cause I gotta forget about you baby.
不要再为你喝醉,不想再为你失眠.

Am in Maths lesson right now.
Finally, the weekends are here again!!
These few days, I'm all drained out... Very, very tired.
I can't wait for tomorrow.
I'm able to see my 6 Rangers + Jackie, & we're all drinking! (:

2010-01-07T22:21:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

Last 2nd day of work 31/12/09

2009 had past, many memories kept.
Ever since Dearest left, my heart had died.
I wanna make 2010 a good year.
I promise I will, & I'll never forget you Grandma (:

2010-01-04T05:58:00.000-08:00

I got so much to say...

2009-12-31T00:30:00.000-08:00

Don't, DON'T turn around...
& Happy 18th Birthday Ivan! (:

2009-12-28T09:51:00.000-08:00

When 2010 arrives, I will delete this.
Lets all get rid of the unhappiness & stay happy! (;

2009-12-27T03:22:00.001-08:00

So wrong,
Feeling so down recently..
Tell me, whats happening to me?
You were the one who hurt me so bad.
Give me back my world!

2009-12-26T00:42:00.000-08:00

Saturday = OFF DAY

I detest working now.
50% might not be returning 5 weeks later.
Too much conflict, Jackie ain't in-charge now as well.
I miss the old colleagues! :(

I had a good 2009 Christmas Eve with my 2 girls,

Cheraik & Peifen.

Went drinking at Social house,

Pongpong & Duajiao just nice, went there as well.

Before I forgot,

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

& I won the lucky draw, 2nd prize & is a Panasonic LCD TV!

How lucky is that ~ =D

On the 24th&25th,

I'm suppose to have you with me.

Since everything turned out this way,

Don't blame me for not giving you one last time.

You made this last decision.

Goodbye.

2009-12-21T05:11:00.000-08:00

3 MORE DAYS TO GO!
Everyday I feel like I'm falling apart...

I already tried my best not to think of it.
I know I can't turn time, can't erase mistakes.
& I'm feeling like second place.
Baby, I'm torn apart.
The mess I'm in, cant you see it's for real?
Without your love, I can't survive.
Meet me halfway, don't put my heart on the line.
I wanna give you everything, baby.

I tried to run but I just can't escape, I can't think straight.
My friends say, in time things will change & they say I'll be okay..
But this time, I'm serious for real.
My one & only one <33

2009-12-19T23:48:00.000-08:00

生日快乐 (=

Gave $50 red packet to Grandpa, my first time.
For I don't want to have any regrets on later.
I have never once given it to Grandma when she's alive.
And now, I can never do it anymore...

& we all believed that it was Grandma who want to see all of us.
Dinner was suppose to be cancelled at Aunt house due to work.
But at the very last minute,
She can ony start work days later.
So, all the arrangements back to normal..

Wish you healthy everyday! (=

2009-12-18T00:15:00.000-08:00

If loving you was a mistake....
I.. I.. I shall stop here.

Thanks to WJJ skill loh ~

WJJ, I return you this day liao hor! LOL!

Worked till 10pm, WJJ friend came over to fetch me.

Lepak lepak till 12 plus until Dua Jiao reached,

Super long loh =.=
Headed to Social House for the night with his camp-mates.
I like, I like!

Since how long I haven't been out at night?

And for us, love is just a game.

Re-starting & ending, I guessed I've played till tired.

Perhaps, its time for a new game.

2009-12-17T00:52:00.000-08:00

分手了就不要在想起我.
你一定要过的比我快乐,找个人代替我.
没有借口, 就这样分了.
想了很多, 其实我们都没错,
你和我这些年是否倦了.

最后一个约定, 不再联络.
雨也停了, 泪也流干了.
想的太多人也觉得累了.
没有你的日子, 再没什么.

提醒自己要记住
别打电话打扰你
别再见面扰乱自己的心
别在怀念从前
不要忘记说过的话.
再痛也要自己忍耐, 每天早上告诉自己.

这就是分手后要做的事.
从此以后请不要在想起我...
不再回头, not again.

2009-12-16T00:06:00.000-08:00

I wanna know,
Who told you I was letting go?

Some people say that everything has got its place and time,
Even the day must give way to the night.
Sure there'll be times we wanna say goodbye.
But even if we tried, there are some things won't be denied.
I see a love that burns eternally & thats our love.

I'm never going to say goodbye.
I swore to you my love would remain,
& I swear it all over again, I won't treat you bad.

I love & miss you so much,

But I just can't express myself out anymore...

I just like to be pampered, thats all.

Not scoldings, not sayings, not being left out, nothing.

2009-12-15T00:47:00.000-08:00

Full of disappointments.
It wasn't meant to be this way.
Let it be, just let it go.
Let everything come to a STOP.

2009-12-14T00:06:00.000-08:00

Finally, holidays are here!

In less than 24 hours time, I'm off to work.

I can't wait, can't wait!

Can't wait to see the new faces,

Can't wait to gossip with the rest at the counter,

Can't wait to see the new conflicts happening at VSC 4,

Of cos can't wait to see XiaoJo at counter as well (=

I miss you....

2009-12-12T18:49:00.000-08:00

SOME PICS OF VSC4 CHALET :D

I LOVE ALL!

Stayed over on Friday night.

Plenty of fun, its wonderful!

Really miss this batch of colleagues.

All the talkings, the joke, every single things we did together,

Really left me alot of memories..

Though the other others can't make it (never see before),

I bet even if they come,

They sure spoil this chalet with alot of conflicts.

& Lastly, special thanks to Boyfriend for bringing me to & fro.

I love you (:

2009-12-11T00:02:00.000-08:00

My dear 4 friends are all now in Army.
See you guys on your first bookout, hopefully! (:
BOTAK-S ~

2009-12-10T00:00:00.000-08:00

Thanks loh.

My phone camera turns out to this color without editing.

So, so, SUCKS TO THE MAX! :(

* Yiting, do cheer up!

2009-12-09T03:00:00.000-08:00

Cognitive UT2 just ended.

Sure buang like hell.

However, I'm happy with my UT1 result.

Though its not that good, but I like! (:

Yesterday.. waited Boyfriend at YCK for 1 hour plus!

Damn pekchek, feel like killing him!

But after meeting him, I love him to the max! LOL~

Went to fetch his mum,

& Both of them went to BoonKeng for haircut.

Then back to West Coast, one of the electronic shop,

& Boyfriend house overnight!

Starting work on the 15th!

Malay VS Chinese? Hopefully it wouldn't happen.

I was told to look after Nemo & co. Laughs!
I miss VSC 4!

2009-12-06T02:01:00.000-08:00

Miss every single memories.

But...

I've alr been drifted apart from each & everyone.

Tell me why.. Why...

I've been wanting to live a world of my own since that day.

Whats happening to me?

Its been very long since I last contacted any friends,

And I'm so lazy to go out to anywhere else.

I swear I alr given up things that are not important to me at all.

Family meant so much to me right now.

I couldn't believe I'm saying this,

But finally, I understood (:

301st

2009-12-05T03:13:00.000-08:00

I miss all the funs & laughters

Aunty: Next time bring your girlfriend to me,

Instead of going back to room straight.

If not, she will feel 不自在.

Boyfriend: Because you busy doing housework,

So don't want to disturb you mah.

You better SHUT UP & don't talk so much to my girlfriend.

Aunty: Ok la, I also know.

Don't worry, I only will say HI TO HER.

Wait till closer already, then I talk more to her.

Like funny only. Haha!

Boyfriend like nice,

Sang Hokkien song for his Grandma in the morning.

Bathe, went to Alexandra to eat.

Tomorrow Boyfriend bringing me to buy my very cheap ice-cream.

LAST DAY PROMOTION (:

Jess & me

2009-12-04T00:00:00.000-08:00

朋友一生一起走

Left exactly 1 week ( 5 sch days) to go before holiday!
Can't wait for that day to come,
And I really hope to go back to VSC4 to work.
Forced mysef not to be late for school this week,
My grades are just so-damn-buang.

Overnight at boys' place tonight.
For the first time I say,
Finally I can see my beautiful future (:

I still miss you so much!!

2009-12-03T00:00:00.000-08:00

We think of you in silence, we often speak your name.
Now all we have is memories & your picture in a frame.
Your memory is our keepsake with which,

We'll never part....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JUEKANG & JESS LIAN!!!

2009-12-02T00:11:00.000-08:00

一切从头开始

I'm so into you, into our future right now.

We'll be fine, I won't let my mind run away again.

很简单的快乐, thats what I ask for.

I know you can give it to me,

Thats why we'll been holding on for the past 7 years, till now.

I've always been running away from you,

Because you've been giving in to me too much, too much ~

Please, give in to me no-more.

Let me make it all up to you (:

I'm back!

2009-11-29T16:32:00.000-08:00

That 3 days was wonderful!

Wonderful in a way that I'm really free from stress.

Thank you for taking such good care of me for that 3 days (:

So maybe it's true, that I can't live without you.

There's so much time to figure out the rest of my life,

And now, I'm thinking two is better than one.
旧爱还是最美

Its just a matter of time.

Perhaps, we were meant to be after on & off all these while...

Chanel, the name you had for me.

2009-11-23T04:25:00.000-08:00

Miss me not.
Goodbye friends...

2009-11-22T02:13:00.000-08:00

I love to pack my room,
Cos I can find alot of memorable things (=

When I was in K2, I think? Teacher very good ^_^

The one I used to love, gave all my time to ~

I love & hate you at the same time (:

I've given up...
I'm sick of feeling this way.
Is there nothing you can say?
Take this all away, I'm suffocating!
Tell me what the fuck is wrong with me?!
Thought I was focused but I'm scared.
I'm not prepared, I hyperventilate.
Looking for hope, somehow, somewhere, & noone cares.

Words can't be trusted, prove to me

2009-11-21T09:23:00.000-08:00

其实一个人独处不算太难

Keep asking myself..
What the hell do I want in life.
Suddenly, I don't feel like going for prac anymore.
I never had determination to complete any single thing,
& I hate myself for this.

Haven't been dreaming of Grandma for 3 months.
I really miss her alot :(
The happy memories lingering in my mind,
I just can't get her picture off my wall paper.
I love her, I miss her, I want to see her, very much ~

You know what I've been doing recently,
And I sincerely wanna apologise.
I'm sorry.

2009-11-20T01:55:00.000-08:00

Perhaps...
Things are starting to change.
Time for me to open my big eyes,
And not do any wrong decision again.
You won't be true to me, anyway.

Till that day comes..

2009-11-18T00:00:00.000-08:00

After some time, I've finally made up my mind.
He is not the boy, and I never want to make him mine.

I stood tall even after all these things happening.
I'm proud of myself, and always will be.
Its been almost 4 months since you left.
They have been keeping all your things from me,
& I'm very sure that something bad had happened to you.
Though its impossible for us to be tgt again,
I thanks you for all the time you've spent on me,
Those moments you left behind.

I love easily, & give up easily if nothing works.
Thats me (:

2009-11-17T00:00:00.000-08:00

Trapped.
It no longer matters to me...

2009-11-16T00:00:00.000-08:00

For a moment like this,
Some people wait a lifetime...

Its pretty true,
I couldn't care more than what it should.
Eugene & Ken is back to me...
Weekian appear as well.
Being loved is better than loving another,
From now on, I always believe.

Baby, you should know that, I like what's going on.
The way you make me feel, I've seen this all before.
You are incredible, I can't deny that, no.
Could be my everything but, Baby you've break my heart.

2009-11-15T02:48:00.000-08:00

How much I wanna say I love you & all..
I gave up.
There's no more love in my dictionary.
These word will appear no more.
My heart, finally torn apart, by you.

You hurt me so badly.
Hours and hours of waiting,
You left me thinking wildly, for nothing.
I believe myself, thats all I can say.
You're a cheeky boy, I know.

STAGE 2! 加油!! :D

2009-11-14T19:12:00.001-08:00

Nothing but lies....

Numb heart

2009-11-13T19:00:00.000-08:00

Beautiful lies

I'm kept in the dark,
And I've been accepting the "facts" quietly.
You didn't even bother how I feel, nothing.
You simply took me for granted,
You still away all my love ~

When will all these stop?
I hate these feeling, seriously.
The simplest thing I want,
I can never get it from you.

Sometimes, I really don't know why must I be so stupid.
To accept all these nonsense from you & carry on like this.
I just need your full attention, all your love.
Yet the fact is, it will never come true, NEVER...
Be true, can you?

You're too selfish to be serious.

Another weekend!

2009-11-13T03:59:00.000-08:00

What you expect, it will never happen.

Someday I'll realise & let it go.
Its not the first and its not the last.
All I need is time to finish this game.
You've lied so well,
Till I can't even believe a single word from you, at all.

People can never expect their another half,
To be msging another everytime they meet right?
WTH is that? You're too much.
Thank you for playing with my heart.
"If its her you choose, just go. She's not just a friend, I'm not stupid".
People will have their retribution, I believe.
Till then...

Love you not (:

I've not be at home for days!

2009-11-12T00:06:00.000-08:00

Yesterday.. Test ended!
♥L came to fetch me at 6.15pm after I reached home to eat.
Headed back ♥Ls' place tgt with Roy.
Slept from 8 plus to 2 plus midnight,
Pasir Panjang for Nasi Lemak, & then West Coast Park.
♥L fetched me back home at 6 in the morning!

喜欢上你的感觉越来越强烈却不敢冒险.
As expected, I knew what happenings all along.
I know these love wouldn't last,
But I really just want to enjoy the days with you still.
I know I will not be happy,
But I still wish to continue on between us..

只好说放弃却不能没有你

I'm yours & you're mine!

2009-11-11T00:58:00.000-08:00

Met ♥ LLJJ at night ^^
Dota from 12 to 5 in the morning,
West Coast Mac for breakfast & home-d!

What will I do? Where will I go? When it's my turn?
How will I know that you're the man I'm dreaming of?
I hope this time it's love!

Skipped school today ~
But I'll have to reach school by 3.45pm for test later.
ARGH!
100% sure fail! Wahahaha!
And for Wednesday module, I can skip no-more! :(

I want more time with you ♥ LLJJ.
Looking forward to this weekend!!! :D

Still thoughts of doubt run through my mind...

Since 2000...

2009-11-09T19:35:00.000-08:00

Met ♥ L at BBDC after lesson.
Roy tagged along, & Westmall KFC for dinner.
Headed to ♥ L place aftermath.
Very very funny thing happened later on..
Shan't elaborate, but the main thing is,
"Window dropped to the 2nd floor rooftop from ♥ Ls' room". LOL!
The whole scene is like WTF?! ^_^

♥ Ls' say next time will be PEH PEH instead of VROOM VROOM :(
He ask if I mind, what more can I say?
♥ L! You haven't even pass leh!! Wait till 30th then ask! LOL ~
Just hope he won't be that "scary" like how he drive his car.
I want to be alive till I enjoy to the fullest man!

You & me is what makes the difference. ilu ♥!

Prac today!

2009-11-08T18:12:00.000-08:00

Where have the whole clique gone?
What have the whole clique become?

To the someone special:
Another day is passing & still there is no word.
On how your life is going, & who is in your world.
I pray you will consider these words I write to you.
I liked you in my life, but, now it's through between us.
We are moving towards the end.
Just so you will know, you meant so much to me ONCE BEFORE.
Take care, my friend. Till then!

Everyones' changing!
From good to bad, bad to worst, vise-versa.
I can't be bothered so much with it too.
Thats your life, not mine.
Hopefully, one day you'll wake up from your dreams.

Where are the old good days?

Partyworld!

2009-11-07T14:14:00.000-08:00

Maried man + Single lady

Thank you for talking sense to me all these years.

You've been a great brother! ♥

2 UTS DONE! 3 more, then holiday!
Class had been more fun!
But still, I'm always in my own world yeas?
Hahahha!
Am now quitting on ciagrettesss.
Today is the 3rd day! I'll continue tarhan-ing ~
CHANEL CAN DO IT! 加油! :D

Its 6am now, just 2 more hours to go!!!
It might be the last time I'm getting so close to it..
If only I have the determination...

Out of my life

2009-11-03T23:06:00.000-08:00

( I miss VSC4 colleague )

The best part of it is that....
I might be able to return to SGH to work during the holidays!

Seriously can't wait for the day to come!!!

I miss everything at work,

And our chalet is coming up in DEC ^^

Life had not been that great but I still got to move on.
On and off, friends come & goes..

NO REGRETS cos the best memories was kept deep within me.

Just hope that you people will change for the better,

Rather than worst (:

On the 7th, I shall make the decision.

I hope I can make it this time round, bless me!!
多少人总因为太了解而分离??

P/S: Tests coming up, gonna get busy these weekend. BYE!

REBEL

2009-10-31T00:00:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIM XUAN!! (:

So bored!
Barry is out to collect his bike,
& I'm home alone with all the CHICKS! WTH!
Lets hope he know how to RIDE SAFE.

Time to work!
I'll get back what I aim to get for myself before.
TAKE CARE PEEPS!

raining days = emo

2009-10-26T05:01:00.000-07:00

If you're gonna break my heart and leave,
Make promises you don't intend to keep,

If that's love, then I want no part.

Couldn't remember a single shit I did this few days.

Went school till 2nd break,

Headed to SGH to find working colleagues.

How much I miss the working enviroment, the counter, etc.

ARRRGHH ~

Couldn't help it & I requested to help at the counter :D :D

Miss those days of getting scolded. Hahahah!

Went back around 8 at night..

COOL MAN!

VSC4 chalet in Decemberrrrrrrr.

I seriously can't wait!

I can gather with my lovelies for 3 days 2 nights!!

But if you think that love should last for life,
If you believe it's more than just one night,

If that's love, then you've got my heart.

Then you're the one I'm waiting for,

I'll give my heart, my soul, my everything...

Down

2009-10-25T03:00:00.003-07:00

Whats so wrong with me?
Maybe its time for me to move on, happily..

Two heart beats as one

2009-10-22T05:38:00.000-07:00

Let's think of the future, forget the past.
You're not my first love but you're my last.

Another week gonna end soon.
With love, I feel so settled down now.
I don't need to think of WHERE my weekend should be spent,
I don't need to think of WHOM to spent with.
Is just school, love and family, as simple as that.

Friends?
Is still the same old group of clique I would be meeting.
To me, knowing new friends will never be a good thing at all.
Conflicts, unhappiness, more or less always happen.
They never understand you or can I say,
I never tried to know my new friends better.
After the incident I've been through,
Well, I never tried being friendly to any of my new friends anymore,
And, I've stopped trusting people.
Imagine how great the impact was on me?
I'll never be able to forget and forgive.

Life's such a wonderful game

MIA

2009-10-21T21:03:00.000-07:00

I don't know where to start,
I don't know what to say,
I don't know what to end with.

Can't wait for November to come...

Everything to an end.

2009-10-19T07:04:00.000-07:00

Overdue photos on Fionas' BBQ.

My lovely friends ^^

AHWANG!

Hope you enjoyed the night :D

Everything to an end.

Nothing I must do, Nowhere I should be.

No one in my life to answer to, but me.

If I could hold you one more time,

Like in the days when you where mine...

I'd look at you till I was blind.

As my heart slowly dies...

Over tonight..

2009-10-18T04:26:00.000-07:00

泪干了, 我已经心碎了.
在夜里回忆着那欢笑和快乐, 全被你带走了...

Of all the things I've believed in,
I just want to get it over with tears form behind my eyes.
I've been searching deep down in my soul.
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old.
It feels like I'm starting all over again ~

Then I said, Goodbye to you.
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew,
The one thing that I tried to hold on to...
And it hurts to want everything & nothing at the same time.
I want what's yours, & I want what's mine.

Goodbye My Love.
你的选择, 我会默默的祝福你快乐.

Its friday!!

2009-10-16T02:00:00.000-07:00

Starting to engage to the new class, new classmates.
Ain't it a good thing for me?
Because.. it will motivate me to school as well ^^

Received a msg during lesson.
Well, I knew this day will come.
Everyone made mistakes, so do I made it before.
Everything we do, it simply concerns about money.
What the hell is this world?

Whatever happens, family always will be the first one to be there,
No matter how ignorance one can be.
I've been through before, the biggest problem I ever created in my life.
Family stood by me.. thats more than I asked for.
I didn't want to think back of the problem..
But it just came to my mind.

A knife was involved, how crazy one can be.
I'm sorry, just really want to apologise to each & everyone of you again.
Mum, Dad, & both sister.
Thank you for everything ~
I was really stressed off at the point of time,
To the extend of wanting to end my life.
I know I'm stupid. But besides money, what more can helped?
Hopefully, its all over now.

All right, back to topic.
Just want you to know,
We'll always stand by you,
We'll be your pillar to support you.

And now.. Whose willing to listen to all my sorrows?
我真的累了...

Your death just left me empty..

2009-10-14T00:00:00.000-07:00

Left school halfway again.

Tears just can't stop shedding..
Never I know that you're so unforgettable.
The days we had, seemed like forever,
And no-one can ever replaced you in my heart.
Trust me, for I've been thinking of you every single day.
I love you precious & I hope you're doing fine.

Back to post..

2009-10-13T03:16:00.000-07:00

Last Thurday, 8/10, I think I'm home?

Wenhao ask me out & I rejected,

Though he want to come all the way from Bedok.

Friday, 9/10, school for the whole day!

Mainly because its MATHS lesson,

& I think I stayed at home at night? I don't remember!

Saturday, 10/10.

Went to AHWANG bbq till 12 midnight plus.

Took alot of photos but Zhili haven't upload yet.

Cabbed back home & cabbed down to Bugis to find Yuren&co.

Fetched Patrick and chilled at Seragoon till 4 plus,

Went to gab house with Yuren.

Watched movie online for a lil while..

Gab slept, 1 hour later, I slept.

Yuren was using com all the way.

Not long later, got disturbed by Gab 小鬼.

Shan't elaborate cos my hair will stand!

Washed up, told Yuren I want to go home & he was shocked.

Its like suddenly.

Woke Gab up to open the door,

& I cabbed back home in the morning at 7.

Sunday, 11/10.

Suhaimi came to fetched me with his R1.

Went West Coast market for dinner,

Blk 437 to meet my long lost 爱爱 Joline,

And waited for Farhan to end work to fetch 爱爱 Joline.

Headed to WCP because I want to meet up with Felix (pri sch fren),

That asshole who said I grow fat. 他妈的!

Waited for so long, he wasted all of our time.

He came less than 5 mins & left. Chicken ass!

Chilled, went home at 2am sharp!

Saw Daniel & Pinde, both from pri sch (:

Suhaimi,

Thanks alot for your listening ear.

Yea, you never see me liking someone like this before.

I really hope the time would come fast.

You know, I don't wait.

But its totally not progressing anywhere :(
If only wishes come true...

Monday, 12/10.

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY AHWANG!

& HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY AH HUAT!! :D

Skipped school for the 4th time,

Stayed at home till night around 11 plus..

Xiao K came all the way from Bedok to find me.

Went Kent Ridge Park to chill and talk like always..

Everything always seemed to be good when we met up.

But why were we not like that in the past?

I just don't get it.

我们还是好朋友 (:

Tuesday, 13/10.
Woke up by both sister as it was raining heavily,
And they want me to prepare early for school.
Got a wake-up-call from Yuren as well (=
Went school with a moody mood,
And only realised XiongJie is in RP also!
Went smoke together,
Train-ed back home after school as well.
Pray no-one call me tonight.
I don't want go out! Please, please!!! ^^

I always tell myself that i'm not worth anyone love.
I've made mistakes, but nobody's perfect.
Guess I'll give it a try..
I don't wanna be misunderstood.
I've got to take this chance,
And make it into something good.

I love you, these 3 words, just for you.

Now that you're not here in my life..

2009-10-09T00:57:00.000-07:00

You were the one who I could tell my deepest fears,
And you were the one who always wiped away my tears.
When he hurt me, you were my prince sent straight from above.
Like a fool, I never saw you were falling in love.
So now I've lost everything,
Casue now you say you're gone forever more.

So who will I,
Who will I run to, who will I turn to?
Now that you left me behind...
Who will dry my tears when I cry?

You were the one I took for granted all those years.
And you were the one, I should of known it was so clear.
How could I be so blind not to see whats before my eyes?
I'll get you back here with me if it takes the rest of my life.
Cause I would do anything,
Cause I want you back forever more.

Who will be there for me,
Who's gonna rescue me,
Who's gonna share my dreams,
Who's gonna mend this broken heart???

Waiting for you

2009-10-08T11:33:00.000-07:00

You're all that matters (=
I'm not gonna let you down.
Darling wait and see.
Between now and then,
Till I see you again, I'll be loving you ~

I miss you!

2009-10-07T03:10:00.000-07:00

Lets start everything from LAST Saturday?

Had fever early in the morning.

Bused all the way to Serangoon to accompany Grandpa for the day.

Rest for awhile, met PeiJun at 8 plus at Serangoon,

Headed over to PS to watch Phoebia 2.

After PS, went to Thai Disco for 2 jugs, & hit home!

Monday, S-C-H-O-O-L!

Met Teckyong, Zigui tagged along too.

Walked over to school, w4 is fucking far.

Whats more pissed off was, we have to queue for the lift,

For about 6-7 mins also have! CB!

And and and..... We have to go down to basement & then go up again,

Cos the lift seems always FULL!

Reached class, laptop can't be used cos my passsword expired!

Yes, this totally turned me off.

Went to IT helpdesk for the 1st break,

Stayed in class till the 2nd break & off I go!

Class is really damn weird & boring! Can't stand it!
Then, headed to Aunty house at Commonwealth at 1 plus..

Hair cut, Nails polish and facial for the day for $5!! Haha!

Played with Eunice till evening, brought Edmund back home.

Gosh, they speak more with outsider now! Not bad (=

Stayed till 8 plus,

Met one of my primary school friend, Leonard,

And 1 of his friend at Clementi.

Headed to West Coast Park to do my homework for 10-15 mins,

RC for Lan Game, Back to West Coast Park till it rained,

// Home sweet home \\

Tuesday, Skipped school!
HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY TO GARY,

& HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY TO KEEHONG!

Keehong came to fetched me to Bugis to meet Wenhao around 1 plus.

Went iluma to eat, & the guys had buffet!

Walked around, went to arcade for games,

And then Ah Boy shop for helmet around 7 to 8 plus!

Slacked awhile, went to fetched Fiona at Taman,

Off we go to Jurong hill to chill again!

I had a long day! So, so tired ~

Wednesday, skipped school again!!
Yuren came all the way to Jurong to meet me cos I was too bored!

He reached around 3 plus,Slacked at my house till 4 plus,

Then we went over to 413 to meeet ZhongWei for coffee till 6 plus.

Got caught in the traffic,

Regretted not going to the toilet before leaving! So urgent man!!

Headed over to Paya Lebar to meet Ben,

& The condo security guard is damn lame lur! Haha!
Played with his dog.. Slacked awhile,

Off we went to Coffeeshop for dinner before heading to Cine.

Phoebia 2 for the second time!! =DDD

After movies, headed to Bugis PartyWorld till 3 plus,

Finally, home sweet home & he sent me to my doorstep.

I had an enjoyable day!

I tried to keep it within me,

But I thought I should give it a try..

I hope it goes out well, perfectly ~

Sigh

2009-10-06T10:02:00.000-07:00

Life haven't been good for me so far.
I've skipped school for days, totally no mood for it.
Someone please motivate me to school =(

ROUNDING <333

2009-10-01T20:47:00.000-07:00

How do I say goodbye to what we had?
The good times that made us laugh, outweighed the bad.

I thought we'd get to see forever.

But forever's gone away, & it's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday...

Her super long socks. LOL!

[Keehong] Very long never go out together already!!

My new friend for the day! WenHao GE! Haha ~

My rider - Keehong
KPO rider - Wenhao
Headed to Pasir Panjang for Nasi Lemak,
West Coast RC for bowling,
99 wan, Kent ride park to slack,
And finally EAST COAST PARK just to SMOKE,
Then, home-sweet-home at 11.45p.m.

I don't know where this road is going to lead.

All I know is where we've been & what we've been through.

If we get to see tomorrow, I hope it's worth the wait.

And, I'll take with me the memories to be my sunshine after the rain.

What lies in the future is a mystery to us all.

No one can predict the wheel of fortune as it falls.

There may come a time when I will see that I've been wrong.

But for now, it's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.

I dread leaving...

2009-09-28T06:22:00.000-07:00

In the beginning, I had no doubts in my mind.
We had our differences, but I thought it would be fine.
Infactuated I was blinded by your kisses, you see me changing..

2 more days to my last day of work.

Since 26th August 2009, I really met good colleagues there.

Its not a surprise that we will get scolded each day.

All the cursing, the vulgarities,

No matter how much it hurt us, we still got to live our day through.

Whats more important is that we always stand by one another.

Staff nurse can be real fucked up at times.

Some of them are very mean, & I pity the patient in the ward at times.

Whatever it is, I gonna miss VSC4.

I met real good visitor there,

As well as a 1960 Aunty, named, "Ang Lay Hoon". LOL!

Its a pity I got to go back to school..

Jackie, thank you for the "take care" care bear (:

I was waiting for you to tell me you were ready.

I know what to do, if only you would let me..

I'm fine (:

2009-09-26T08:05:00.000-07:00

Finally, everything to an end.
We broke up and moved on to our next chapter in life.

Whats never meant to be, will never meant to be.

We see no point holding on (:

Met Juekang at Teban for dinner,

Then met cliques (Gary, KM, Fiona & Jon Ng) to Halo Bar.

DRINK, DRANK, DRUNK.

Thank you people for looking after me.

Never felt so drunk after 2005/2006 birthday.

I know exactly why I'm falling in love.

With you, you're so gentle, so special, so masculine.

It's just like honey to a bee.

The way that you have captured me, just like a taste of ecstasy ~

Pay is in!!

2009-09-24T00:34:00.000-07:00

Your words can crush things that are unseen.

So please be careful with me, I'm sensitive.

Lately, ain't got a clue what I going through.
Every time you walk away, I guess it's my fault.
I blame it all on fantasy, mistaken lies for chemistry.
Ain't got a choice but to let you walk,

Cause nothing was what I thought.

OT for 1 and a 1/2 hour till 10pm instead of 8.30p.m.
Last day of work on 30th October 2009.
Gonna miss that bunch of new friends over there.
These 1 month, yes.. I learnt.
I learnt to ignore, be cool, and don't bother :D
Wonder if my patience did increase? Haha!

With all this fire that burns between us,
There's so much to lose, yet so much more to gain.
And if I could choose the world around me,
The world I'd choose would all revolve around you.
So help me complete the game inside me,

And help to mend my fragile heart.

Miss....

2009-09-22T06:40:00.000-07:00

For all my failed relationship,
I could only blame him, 261205.
For all these years.. I always have the phoebia.
For making me lose trust in every guy,
For losing faith in relationship.

Its been very long since we last met up.
Its been very long we haven't been msging & calling all day long.
Its been very long since we went out together, just the two of us.

For every single relationship.. It started out good they usually do.
Then one day it's taken for granted.
Till words become weapons and love turns to pain..
Its not just you and me anymore.
I don't know how to say,
But I really missed the days when we just started out.
Not now, not at all.
Where have all the good day gone?

I miss all the pamperings and love.
Where is the sweet & thoughtful bf I thought I have?

I’m out on my own again

2009-09-21T07:28:00.000-07:00

Is there a light at the end of the road?
I’m pushing everyone away, cause I can’t feel this anymore.

Love ain't like that.
You can't buy it at the store, try it on for size,
Then bring it back if it don't feel right.
Love ain't that easy to define.
You can't build it by design, it takes its own sweet time.

Didn't I make you feel like you were the only man?
And didn't I give you everything that a woman possibly can?
I wish I could go back to the very first day I saw you.
I still don't understand the reason.
I think I was just afraid (what can I say).
All I can do is to face the truth and deal with the mess that I made..

Living and loving the hard way,
Eugene tan, you're the hardest lesson of my life.

^_^

2009-09-20T04:19:00.002-07:00

Follow your heart.
Your intuition, it will lead you in the right direction.
Let go of your mind.
Your intuition is easy to find.

I'm going insane if things gonna stay on this way.
I simply can't take it anymore & need a break from these.
I have thorns like any rose,
And you could hurt me with your bare hands.
You could hurt me with with the sharp end of what you say,
But I'm lost to you now.

And there's no amount of reason that could save me.
So break me, take me.
Just let me feel your love again
Just follow your heart, baby ~

Turn around

2009-09-19T06:16:00.000-07:00

I was so stranded.
I was lost and abandoned.
I needed another home which is right into your arms.

I'm sorry, a stupid thing to say.
Especially it's not like I planned it this way.
But I'm sorry is all that there is left of me.
Maybe I could have loved you better,
Maybe you should have loved me more,
Maybe our hearts were just next in line,
Maybe everything breaks sometime.

It's hard to believe it's boiled down to this.
It seems so surreal this won't be healed by a kiss.
It's hard to stare at you, knowing you like I have.
I used to feel so close, now I feel so bad.
My heart's filled with thunderstorms and I'm ready to burst,
And I've lost my favorite harbor and I'll weather for the worst.

"Been a long time since she cried.
The tears come easily and tumbling down nowadays.
She remembers the day when her dearest left her,
And she's afraid it's too late.."

I believe

2009-09-18T09:38:00.000-07:00

Time, it needs time.
To win back your love again.
I will be there, I will be there ~

If we'd go again..
All the way from the start, I would try to change.
Your pride has build a wall, so strong that I can't get through.
I'm loving you.
Try, baby try to trust in my love.
I know what you've been through,
You should give me a chance.

This can't be the end..
I'm still loving you, I'm still loving you..
I need your love baby...

Only fools believe that nothing changes, nothing leaves.

2009-09-16T10:01:00.000-07:00

Bombed babylove phone like an idiot,
From Outram all the way back to Jurong then he heard it.
Wtf =.=

Days haven't been great so far.
Ups & downs, at least I'm proud that we made it through, till today.
My heart had not change abit, just that something seems amiss.

I hate lies, I hate liars ~
End up, when I found out all these..
Seems like I'm taken like a fool.
I will never view it again,
So that I'll never see things which I don't like to.^^

If you want my heart, you have to promise not to tear it apart.
Cause my heart has been hurt a lot,
And it always seems Love is not sweet....
Cause love is a game until it's played.
And if it's lost, it can’t ever be saved.
We have Heaven to gain and Hell to lose.
And the difference is up to me and you.
So if you will, I will stop saying I won't,
And start saying I do… I do.

I need you, thats all I'm gonna say =DDD

For you

2009-09-15T19:27:00.000-07:00

Say that u want me,
Say that u'll never leave me.
You got to tell me you need me,
And don't let them take ur love away.

Some say that I am a fool to love you,
Some say that I am too dumb to know whats right for me.
But only I can live my life, and only I can feel my heart ache.
I never claim to know everything, but I know when your loves' away,
I cant sleep and I cant leave,
And I cant live, and I cant breathe.
So, dont make a fool of me.

Now they say that me knowing u, will hurt me..
And they say its a matter of time before u break my heart..
But even when we're far apart, I always feel that you are with me.
I hope and pray almost everyday, that our love never goes away.

Numb feelings.

2009-09-15T09:36:00.001-07:00

Blame me for spoiling this love between us,
Blame me for every single shit.

I'm sorry,
And I guess its pretty hard for us to go back to how we were.
Disappointment now & then,
Very used to all those empty words that tried to make me smile...
And I really meant it, I really smiled.

Yet, thats just imagination.
Never believe in any single word, only till it happen.
I miss that period.
I miss those times seriously.
I miss being that pampered & loved.
Hell! It doesn't last....
All these quarrellings... made me go down, down, down.
You will find someone better for sure, my dear.

Love/lust, you make that choice.

All the best!

2009-09-14T07:16:00.000-07:00

有些放不下, 有些不想忘.

Pissed day.
Shan't elaborate at all.
These ain't what I planned, what I looked forward to.
Fucked all the attitudes.

Blame me for FORCING you to the zoo with me,
When you don't even wants to.
Only after so many hours..
You accidentally said it out.
Goodbye zoo ~
I thought I could visit you with my love one.

Fine, I'll accept I'm the 2nd important to you excluding your family.
Next time, planned your schedule with him FIRST,
Then with me.
Don't spoil all my plans!
Fucked up shit!

Someday, I will.
Perhaps somewhere in the part of the world,
Memories ain't supposed to be replaced.
...
Thank you for always leaving me alone.

我们曾经爱过,对我来说已经足够.

2 more weeks!!

2009-09-12T20:22:00.000-07:00

Till the end of time

You came to me like the dawn through the night,
Just shining like the sun.
Out of my dreams and into my life,
You are the one, you are the one ~

Said I loved you but I lied.
Cause this is more than love I feel inside.
Said I loved you but I was wrong.
Cause love could never ever feel so strong.

With all my soul I've tried in vain,
How can mere words my heart explain?
This taste of heaven so deep, so true I've found in you.
Need you forever, I need you to stay.

I feel like a hero and you are my heroine.
Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?

l-o-v-e

2009-09-10T07:15:00.000-07:00

Everyday spent with Babylove = HAPPY!!!

Such a fortunate girl,
Having Babylove fetching me from work these few days.
Baby, you're my everything, you're all I ever wanted.
You've got something special,
And when you're looking at me, I wanna get all sentimental.

So, I won't hesitate no more, no more ~
It cannot wait, I'm sure.
There's no need to complicate.
Our time is short,
This is our fate, I'm yours.

Officially together (: (: (:

2009-09-09T17:04:00.000-07:00

One of the best day ever ~

090909 ; 9pm
The sweetest words, I'll never forget.
Babylove being so cheeky to wait till 9pm.
Hopefully our r/s will turn out to be like what Babylove mum says,
长长久久.

Brought my phone, Babylove brought his watch.
We both got our new love on the same day :D

Argh... can't wait for contract to finish.
I don't wanna work anymore.
I want to go holiday with Babylove!!!
I want to spent everyday with Babylove!!
I want to make sure Babylove will be the first to see my mum!!
I'm so broke now!!!
I want to do so many things....

Let the time pause here.
No quarrels, definetely filled my day.
I love you so much ~

HAPPY!!!! ^^

2009-09-07T07:54:00.000-07:00

I wish I could have 3/4 of Babys' time =(

Cabbed to work with Wari this morning.
Reached 15 mins earlier,
Start work & felt like some "hungry ghost".
Then, Baby reached & brought me pizza for the 2nd time again ^^

Ended work, walked with Apple to station,
And went off to Grandpas' place.
At last, he remembered I'm the daughter of my mum! LOL~
Watch some ch 8 drama,
And I ended up in tears in just a minute.
It just reminded me of how my Grandma passed away.
Sigh ~
Grandpa, not that I don't want to visit you.
That place was just full of Grandma memories.
How much I wanted to bring back the Hello Kitty..
I held on & put it back..
I thought I shouldn't touched something she've kept for years,
And I'm touched she kept it for so long (=

Went off 1 hour plus later to meet Baby again.
Trained to Batok to catch the movie, "BLOOD TIES", his treat.
Nah, like cops & revenge story. CORK!
I thought it was a horror movie!! Damn shit! Haha ~
Went to shop around,
Babys' brought something for me to try on,
Hopefully it works on me? (=

For all the time we spent together..
I really enjoyed it.
I swear, I promise, only you ~

Verge of breaking down

2009-09-05T19:46:00.001-07:00

When you're at fault, you don't blame yourself.
You are good at pushing all the blame back to me,
Like you always do ~

In fact,
I'm so tired of all the quarrels recently.
I stayed awake just to wait for your call..
And all you did was to say "YOU ARE SUPPOSE TO SLEEP",
When you actually said that you will call me back in AWHILE,
After chatting with Francis.

After these few weeks... I've thought alot.
About you, about me, about us, about our future...
If thats what you want,
I swear I won't bother you anymore...
& I meant my words.

Because of my stupid thoughts..
I thought you would treat me differently,
From how you treat her..
But I'm so wrong!

p/s I miss being pampered.

2 hands to clap

2009-09-04T20:54:00.000-07:00

Weekend shift from 2 to 10p.m (:

Love has not been that great of a friend to me, lately.
Over and over again and again,
Love has proved that she is my enemy.

Baby, let me know if you want me.
I really wanna know if you want me..
And baby, if you don't tell me something, I gotta move on.
Cuz everybody need a little loving,
And you're the only one that I wanna be with.

I'm sorry if you don't tell me something.
But I gotta move on Baby.
Understand I need more than conversation,
I need action from a man.
Now it's time you take a stand, oh ~

Repeating thoughts of the pain that had caused,
And the tears that I’ve cried...

You driving me wild ~

2009-09-03T19:10:00.000-07:00

Could I be falling for you?
Is this a fantasy come true?
Is this a dream that i waited for?
Am i the one that you adore?

oh-oo-oh-oh ~ I think i'm falling for you
oh-oo-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh ~
What am I supposed to do cos you make me feel like I'm falling in love.
Am I falling for you?
Could it be love?
Tell me boy, is it true?

I get a rush when I think about you,
Lose control of my body and my soul.
And when you hold me, I don't wanna let go.
You give me reason, every reason just to love you.
I can think about nothing else baby.
i just wanna find a way to get your attention.

Baby look at me in all of my dimensions,
I need to know something, Tell me what's up....

Off day

2009-08-31T02:38:00.000-07:00

我宁可就当个哑巴

Friends comes and goes..
If you are not the one I'm looking for, off you go.
I really won't give a damn to you,
Nor bother to say anything much more than a word,
Because I choose all my friends on my own.

All the pictures, the messages, anything that got to do with "her".
Well, it really proves how much you love me.
I don't know how true you can be...
And I really hope this wouldn't bother me so much.
At times, I really enjoyed being with you...

我知道强逼的爱不幸福, 所以我不再如此糊涂.
就让寂寞陪着我一个人孤独.
爱你就应该接受这一条路...

0830 - 1630

2009-08-26T03:31:00.001-07:00

Well, work ain't stress, kind of fun...
BUT! There's "insane" people, I would say.
People feeling agitated when visiting times are over,
Prisoner being handcuff on leg and hand,
Gang of Bangladesh people visiting,
Simply just different kinds of people in this world.

Overall, work really very fun la ~
Because all are teenagers!!!
Even the older ones are friendly (=
And I met another guy whose birthday falls on the same day as me,
With the same name as Love, Eugene, stays jurong too.
Ain't world small?

No matter how harsh their words are,
Just got to pretend they are singing.
We can never take in to heart, ok EATING? ^^
Thats when we can bring ourself to work happily for 1 month.
Cheers!

Declared HOLIDAYS!!!! :DDDD

2009-08-25T00:00:00.000-07:00

Cause everything's so wrong,
And I don't belong living in your precious memory...

Horoscope for the day!
In Detail
Every now and then, you need to get emotionally intense, experience a tender exchange of sentiments or just sit down and have a heart-to-heart with someone. This is definitely one of those times. You won't settle for anything that even remotely smacks of a surface encounter. You want depth, intensity and passion -- and if you don't get them, you'll take your toys and go home.

Haven't been on good terms with Love.
September totally sucks!!
Both having exams, stressing ourselves, neglecting one another.
I got so much to say,
But I'm not going to write down here.

Afterall, I'll never trust guys, again!
You've totally worsen it when I tried to trust.
Empty words, empty promises.
And right now, sweet-talk totally makes me puke.
Don't ever do that again!
It will only losses my trust in you...

Edited!
Just came back from meeting Love.
Everything back to square ~
Its still you when I feel love.

太多的分分合合, 太多的伤口难愈合.
Will be right back again! (=

2009-08-24T23:58:00.001-07:00

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

Sweet-talk makes me puke now.

2009-08-24T00:51:00.000-07:00

又恨又爱

A big THANK YOU to things that are bothering me.
I can't even concentrate during UT3 today.
WTH! FUCK IT!
I'm gonna score damn badly for today maths paper.
I don't want to retain!!!!

I think about you all the time, & everyday it hurts to cry.

So much has happened in my life, I'm not sure how hard to try.

Tears are falling constantly, my heart hurts everyday.

All I could do was to think about your beautiful smile,

That I pray I see again someday.

So many hearts were broken, the day God called you home.

It seems as though each one of us were left to survive alone..

I know there was a reason that you had to leave.

And it was to keep us in your watchful eyes.

Grandma,

When I am a bad girl, you still love me more.

When I am at school,

I think about you, and all the good times I spent with you.

When I feel like giving up, it feels like someone is pushing at my back.

Of all the grandmas in the world, I thank god that I had you.

I love you a lot & I just can't say goodbye...

Tears falling again...

Random post.

2009-08-23T01:19:00.000-07:00

I'm so stressed off, don't know why neither.
Just 2 more days to go & I'm free!
Why do I feel this way still?

No-one is here with me throughout this period of time.
When I started feeling lonely... feeling down...
And you were there accompanying someone else,
What about me?
You're just leaving me aside, forgetting what you ever promise.

Yes, love always start sweetly...
So much time to give and spare for another half.
Msging, calling at every point of time.
Yet, not soon later, things always change.
No much time, less msg & calls, distance so far apart.
If I know you would be this busy like before,
I wouldn't choose this way.
You know me.

Maybe you don't know what I really want......
& I just need a break.
I want to drink, I want to chill, I want to go for a holiday,
I want to get all the things I want,
I want a heart-to-heart talk with someone =(

I dreamt of Grandma again ^^

2009-08-21T11:28:00.000-07:00

Alan msged me last night...
Part of his msg was..
Seriusly lo. I miss those days with you.
Is just that I never treasure you.
We do quarrel & both our temper are bad,
That is the main reason.
Even Ah Zai told me you are more suitable for me.
Thinking back, I'm just too stubborn.
Ya, I rmb clearly.
I never forget it, until this day.
The wallet & photo you gave me, I never replace it.
I know its not fait to other girl, but I don't know.
I just don't wish to take it away.
I still rmb you doing hsework for me.
Don't know why,
I just feel thats why I always think & dream of you.

You owe me too much...
I stay 100% faithful to you, yet what I got in return?
I do every single shit for you,
You just took me for granted to be by your side.
Yeas! All I could said was,
This time, your retribution is here.
下个路口再见吧!

Precious Friend

With you, I'll always have a friend.

You're someone who I can depend, To walk a path that never ends.

Without you, my life has no meaning or rhyme,

Like notes to a song out of time.

How can I repay you for having faith in me all along?

2 more exams to go, I'M FREE!!!!

Working on the 26th at Singapore General Hospital.

Bless me ok. I don't want H1N1. Hahaha ~

I miss you terribly...

2009-08-20T00:00:00.000-07:00

Sleeping soundly..
And then, a light flashed through my eye at 4a.m sharp!

I opened my eyes suddenly & looked at the window.
I knew SOMEONE woke me up & unknowingly,
I kept staring at the window (more than 1/2 hour) for no reason,
And then I went to the toilet with my dog.

Was that you?
I couldn't believe.
This never once happened,
And its still the first day of 七月.
Am I thinking too much?
Yet, I believe what I FEEL & SENSE.
I knew you are around,
I knew you also wants to know how all of us doing.
GRANDMA, WE ALL MISS YOU! (=

"Lay Hoon,
Thank you for sharing with me.
Wow your RJ had really touched me so much =)
Thank you, Lay Hoon.
I am very touched that you were appreciative of my efforts.. it is especially heartwarming."

我忘不了从前, 如何期待明天?

First day of UT

2009-08-19T04:39:00.000-07:00

你是我醒来后总想起的那一个人.
为我承受太多太多牺,我却把你伤得那么深.

After it hits 12 tonight,
I really hope I could see you.
Grandma, I just want to have a good chat with you,
Really wonder how are you right now..
You've suffered alot before you passed away,
Medication for years, and all those medicine really sucks.
You knew mum threw away the most precious thing I've kept for years,
Which is from you.
At that point of time, I really hated mum for doing so.
But I've lost my precious you,
And I couldn't bring myself to hate her.
I just have to tell myself, "As long as I remember".
Make it a promise?
Come find me, & I swear I'll move on well..

Felt a distant with Boyfriend.
Haven't been meeting up quite sometime,
And I swear everything is so different right now.
We're both busy with our own things,
And couldn't managed to find time for each other.
Whatever I told you just now, just keep in mind.
It's seriously not a joke.
It might happen because I won't like it when Boyfriend don't have time for me.
You choose, I decide (=

I want to get my phone!! $$$$$$$$
Will you? You are just a big liar! Hahahhaha ~

Last day of lesson I attend before exams.

2009-08-17T19:55:00.000-07:00

Last day of lessons supposely should be on Tuesday.

But, I self-declare holiday on Tuesday.

Hence, Monday is my last day of lesson which is Science :DD

Same birthday!!! 26 feb, 1991 & 1990

2 Brothers

This is my faci! Advertising for some hair shampoo. LOL ~

Xiaowei

Most handsome guy in class? Haha!

Smoker buddy!!! (:

One of the best in class, Jerome.

He can bang my head using his head for no reason,

He can dig his nose & put on the wall,

He can ask for food & drink at all times,

Take out his pants right infront of you,

Any stupid thing you can think of..

Despite all these, he's one of those steady & good friend!

I shall miss disturbing him & being disturbed by him!

All the best to you & erhem =p

The girls on Monday

W16A without full attendance

Its tough to know 25 new friends again for next semester.

I think I'll miss a few in my class.

Fated that we met, & believed we got to part someday.

All the best to each & everyone of you.

You turned my life around...

2009-08-16T17:41:00.000-07:00

I can't remember when you weren't there,
When I didn't care for anyone but you.
I swear we've been through everything there is,
Can't imagine anything we've missed,
Can't imagine anything the two of us can't do.

Work at Suntec convection hall with Berney, Gary & JonNg.
8.30a.m to 8.30pm, exactly 12 hours, standing for the whole day.
In charge of China together with JonNg & he tio fired right at 7p.m! Haha!
Went to meet Ben after work and train-ed home.
WTF! I missed a F1 work!! At least $400+ plus 3 days sia! Argh!!!
Why must I have exammmm?!!!
Anyway... I've not yet start on my revision!!
Good luck to me (=

Through the year, you've never let me down.
The sweetest days I've found, I've found with you.
Through the years, I've never been afraid.
I've loved the life we've made,
And I'm so glad I've stayed, right here with you through the years.

谢谢了, 伤我的人.

2009-08-14T18:27:00.000-07:00

Skipped school.

Brought BabyR to Grooming at 1pm appointment.

Went to Sis dental clinic to take retainer.

Aftermath, Love came JP to fetch me,

And down to Suntec City to sign contract :DDDD

Rock fever 5, my all-time favourite!

Then to Tower 1.

Saw Yiting there while waiting for Love IC to be return by ST.

Quite a no of people were being selected as well.

50% feel like working,

50% feel like accompanying Love.

I'm sorry love. Overseas end of year ok? (:

This would be the last time I'm sitting on to this car.

Love allowed me to drive round my carpark.

Just look at my "nervous" and "stupid" face. Hahahaha!

I can't stand it man! So scary when turning la.

But I still made it :DDD

Love is always tempting me to get my liscense! ARGH ~

Brought this for Baby to sleep

Phone plan ends at 23rd Sept.
I'm still waiting for Samsung Star to be selling in Starhub outlet.
I wonder if I should change my mind.
WTH. I can't get the first 2 phones I've chose!!!!
Am I really so suay? LOL.

Exams are here, I still haven't start studying a single shit.

Sorry to those who called me at night.

I'm not going out these few days to play.

We'll meet up soon!

Can't wait to see something on Loves' new car!!!!

谁还记得是谁先说永远的爱我?

心中是清楚的.

有一天, 有一天都会停的.

亲爱的, 虽然我也害怕在天黑了以后. 不知道会不会有以后..

I want to thanks those who've hurt me deeply.

Without you, I wouldn't know the right one is always here with me.

Thanks all fuckers! Hahahahah!

I'm so in love, so in love.....

I wish you're here

2009-08-13T07:13:00.000-07:00

If you want to go on reading this post..
Don't say I'm insane because I'm not, I just totally believe.
If you are not interested, just leave (:

24th to 26th July 2009

Wondering what this picture is all about?
Let me just elaborate a little here..
Thats the flower in my Grandma living room.
Yes, the grasshopper stayed there for 2 full days.
The color of the grasshopper, my Grandma had a shirt with that color.
I can't show you because the shirt is already burnt to her.
And... look carefully at the circle part.
You will see that the leg is broken.
& my Grandma amputated her leg few weeks before she passed away.
From all these... how can I ever believe thats not her?
Everything is just so coincidence.

Grandma, just when will you visit me?
Whatever you become, just not cockroach and lizards please.
Stay there, don't move, and I swear I will talk to you.
I'm not crazy!!!!
I just fucking miss her soooooo much =(

I believe

2009-08-11T00:00:00.000-07:00

[ CHANEL 爱 EUGENE ]

I'll be faithful to you, no-one shall come in us again.

I won't leave you alone from now on.. :D

Good food, good place, good ambience.
Thank you for everything.
I look forward towards the end of your probation,
Exactly one more month :D